So last night I had a slight break down in the fact that there are so many aspects of my life that I simply cannot control, no matter how much I want to. So I sobbed out all of my worries in prayer and simply said, "God I need you. I'm sorry for thinking that I'm in charge and for trying to handle the things that are completely in Your control. So I'm giving it up to you." Because I knew that He would take care of it.
Lo and behold.
It took me until right now, as I was getting ready for bed, to realize that the thing that was most on my heart and most out of my control was answered around noon today. It wasn't the immediate answer I had wanted to discover the second I woke up this morning, but it was answered far better than I could have hoped for. I think He enjoys teaching me patience and trust and definitely delayed gratification.
But most of all, I think this was such an opportunity for me to experience humility. To admit that I am not in control and that the only was to really have any control in my life is to put Him in the driver's seat.
After I realized that my prayer had been answered I got down on my knees and said thank You. For me, getting on my knees is kind of a weird thing to do. I think part of it is a humility thing--I mean when else do you get on your knees besides when you're cleaning the toilet or scrubbing the floor? But I think it's also just because, sadly, it is a relatively knew concept for me. I've never gotten into the habit of praying on my knees. I pray standing, sitting, walking, driving, singing, but never on my knees. How strange. It's yet another thing I'm working on.
Anyway, I just had to say, God is good. All the time.
And I absolutely love that He decided to give me a quick answer this time :)
I hope you make the time to get on your knees this week and give thanks!
LEE
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